Feeling like a failure: What am I to do?
I'm really struggling at the moment. I am on a cocktail of pills. 50mg Sertraline and 2mg Valium in the morning, 2mg Valium afternoon and 2mg Valium night and 15mg of Mirtazapine. Psych obviously wants to get my anxiety down so that I can get off the Valium (I have been taking for 1 month). He has recently added 25mg dolusepin (older Trycilic). I have only taken the dolusepin two nights. I have done a lot of reading/research and have found that there needs to be cautious cross tapering between the dolusepin and SSRIs (which is fair enough, but I am already on two SSRIs Mirtazapine and Sertraline). Also I read that SSRIs can increase the toxicity of the dolusepin x 10 times). I have decided not to take my dose of dolusepin tonight as I am very anxious and every night before I go to bed I am tears because I am worried I will die in my sleep. The psych wants to try and get rid of the Sertraline and that is why he has added the dolusepin. I can't find any guidelines that agree with what he is doing. Everyone keeps saying to me 'if you want to get better than you need to take the pills'. I have left a message for him early this morning regarding my concerns, but he never got back to me. I'm not really looking for someone to tell me what to do, but just needed to get it down in writing. I feel that this isn't only my anxiety talking and that I have a real concern. The psych will not be impressed, but I'm in tears and scared. Tracy
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