Hi all

I've been putting if off going to see a therapist. Everyday I think i'm going to go this week and will make that phone call after work, but i never do! The thought fills me with dread and I know as soon as i arrange something i won't be able to stop thinking about it and dreading going.

Just walking in to the building and saying to the receptionist or whoever that i've got an apoointment will be enough. I suppose i'm avoiding facing my fear and it's not good because it will only prolong things. Also i don't want to get my hopes up only to find the therapy won't help.

I am really dreading all this and feel sick inside even thinking about it. But have got to do something as i've got lots of courses and meetings to go to where i might have to talk. I'm so fed up of having this phobia, just wish i could feel normal.

Sorry to go on.. letting things get to me this week.

KW