Re: I really cannot cope anymore...
I understand exactly when you talk about the demon in your head. It can become constant and feel as though you really can't cope anymore. But you will.
No wonder you're so anxious with a forthcoming wedding and the colonoscopy.
Your anxiety is more than likely making your IBS symptoms worse which is causing you more anxiety. It's also causing you to focus on your weight and calorie intake.
You're in a loop that you need to break.
Once you have the colonoscopy and are reassured that there's nothing wrong I'm sure you'll calm down enough to enjoy your wedding.
Has your Doctor given you anything to help you relax. I'm not much for medication but there are times when we need it.
You don't sound pathetic. So many people on this forum have been where you or are in a similar place right now.
Im battling this HA monster constantly and I know how much it helps when I can share with fellow sufferers.
I too am going through an IBS flare up at the moment.
Stay in touch on here. It does help.
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General Anxiety, Health Anxiety and Panic Disorder for over 25 years. South Africa