Originally Posted by
beatroon
Hello there,
As a fellow OCDer, with lots of varying themes which rotate, I can say that the amount of rumination you are both doing on your TOCD theme sounds very much like OCD. It's like worshipping at an altar of doubt. The whole 'What if I want to be XYZ/punch XYZ/jump off a bridge? But I don't!' and the resultant distress is indicative of faulty brain chemistry, not a genuine hidden desire to be/do XYZ.
But the reassurance from me ends here, because as we all know, the way through the obsessions is to gradually stop from reassurance seeking, and retrain your brain to stop distressing you. I would recommend the finding of a good OCD therapist who can help you, and doing some mindfulness. Terry has created an excellent mindfulness tools resource which you can access through the links in his signature.
Good luck!