So here I am again mind racing, chest pains, jaw clenching, heart beating, arms aching. I am so scared of dropping dead from a heart attack and all the while I am trying to act as normal as I can around my kids. Wow I hate anxiety I am writing this down part of me thinking heart attack half of me thinking anxiety attack. I wish it would just piss off and never come back. I am sick of living on a knife edge all the time, sick of being scared of the next attack and sick of not believing its not heart related even when I have been here a thousand times before and always been alright. Christ almighty is a load of ********!!!!

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