from Blossom. You know that I have suffered from anxiety Panic attacks and agoraphobia for many years now, but Depression has set in over the last couple of years, and wake each morning afraid to face the day, I wake with that knot under the rib cage, and that starts me off.
About a month ago, I started to get out each day with my cousin or husband in the car, even went into Town, and in the shops alone, whilst they waited outside. The morning had been weepy, but made myself go in the afternoon, was so pleased with myself, ( not brave ) but did it, but I was in two weeks ago for a few days, and it has stopped me going out now. I even went into the British Home Stores, and M&S to have a scone and a cup of tea. Very shaky but did it, even went to Sainsburys and did some shopping on a quiet day, but now am back to square one, after being in for those few days. Today has been a terrible day to the point when I have been hysterical crying, I get afraid to face each day I went to my GP last Wednesday, and he said there was nothing he could do, but to buy a dog, what a diagnosis, they just dont want to know, I dread going to bed, as I am afraid of waking in the morning the tears just come and last usually for a few hours on and off, but can anyone help me, I guess I wake with it on my mind. I tell myself every night, TOMORROW WILL BE A GOOD DAY, What has gone wrong, can anyone help me. PLEASE. Thankyou from Blossom