Slipping back in to depression

[Avasmummy_x]

I've been on mirtazipine 15mg for a good few months now. Its been a wonder drug fore me. It got me out of my suicidle state and settle my anxiety a lot.
Well now I'm going through a tough time. I found my mum od'd on Tuesday and she's been very poorly from it and is now in the mental health unit. This is her 3rd time doing it.
I've been numb all week everyone's been saying how well I've coped especially with finding her and being up and down the hospital all the time whilst juggling my home life with my two children.
Well last night I think it hit me and all I did was cry.
Today I'm even worse and feel the lowest I've felt in a long time. I don't wanna get up, dressed, wash. I'm just laying on the sofa over thinking and panicking about becoming suicidle cause this is exactly how I felt last time.

I'm gonna ring my physciatrists office tomorrow to let her know what's going on and I'm struggling but my question is has anyone slipped back in to depression whilst on this med and if so. How did you resolve it x

[hanshan]

Hi Avasmummy,

I've been fairly stable, but that's terrible news about your Mum. I know you want to appear strong, but don't be afraid to tell one or two trusted people plus the psychiatrist how you really feel, and they can help you get through this.

[Tony52]

I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through at this time Avasmummy.
I am on Mirtazapine myself and still waiting for 15 or 30 mg to work as have been on both and not sure which is the best dose.
Things will work out for you I'm sure,and I do hope that you will continue to feel the benefits of Mirt going through this difficult time .

[Cherryade]

This is probably just the shock of it all hitting you. Just have a YOU day today, tomorrow you will feel better. And you will deal with it. This is just temporary. Honest. You will get through this.