Very low:( ALS fear. Giving up.

[Ljthompson10]

Hi everyone, I'm very low at the minute and am planning to see my school nurse/GP tomorrow so please don't be annoyed with me and give support. I'm terrified I have ALS.

I now have new symptoms. My left hand is thinner thank my right hand, especially the paddy bit on the palm. And there seems to be excess skin and not as much muscle. And on the pinky side of my hand there seems to be no muscle!! Same with my left arm but not as bad. I have widespread muscle twitches which don't bother me as much as I ignore them when I'm busy.

And today I have noticed that I have a tight feeling in my throat, as if there is a lump and it makes me panic and feel sticky at times. It's horrid. I also have excess saliva.

I'm only 17 and am so scared it's untrue. I lost one relative last year because of this awful illness (no family history) and I feel as though I'm next. I'm petrified. I am still very strong and go to the gym however and and doing CBT for my anxiety. But I'm so low at the minute and am praying I'm fine.
I have been shouted at and kicked off the ALS forum multiple times and they say they are sick to death of me. And I know why as I must come across as such an idiot.

Please reply people x :( :( I have had a lot of support from the great people on this forum in the past so thank you all by the way

[Gary A]

Why are you on the ALS forum?

You do realise that by empathising and discussing this illness with people who do actually have it will only make you think you have it too, don't you?

I can't sympathise with someone who is going out of their way to self distruct. You don't have ALS, you have a few minor symptoms of anxiety. You are doing your damnedest to convince yourself otherwise.

[Ljthompson10]

I know. I am sorry guys. You must think I'm so annoying!

I also get muscle twitching in my upper lip. So terrifying!!

Gets me so down :(

[Ljthompson10]

But how do I keep my mind off the possibility of having a life threatening illness:(

[Ljthompson10]

Come on...

What?? I have all the symptoms....

[Fishmanpa]

I discovered this forum because HA sufferers would come posting on the cancer forums I was part of. I came to tell them to respect those that actually have the disease. I stayed around to help.

Post all you want here but do not... I repeat DO NOT post on the ALS forums. It's disrespectful beyond words!

I hope you find some peace.

Positive thoughts

[Ljthompson10]

Come on...

What???? :(

[Gary A]

What?? I have all the symptoms....

No you don't, and the fact that you think you do has literally proven my point.

[Ljthompson10]

I discovered this forum because HA sufferers would come posting on the cancer forums I was part of. I stayed around to help.

Post all you want here but do not... I repeat DO NOT post on the ALS forums. It's disrespectful beyond words!

I hope you find some peace.

Positive thoughts

But I've driven myself to honestly believe I have this awful illness.

[SLA]

so scared it's untrue

Funny how the words people use gives an insight into their thought processes.

LJ, whatever it is, you have a problem.

And its not ALS.