Cheers Pulisa My cousin has anorexia. She's very thin and gaunt and has lived with it for a while now. Looking back at my situation it was tough, but I managed to to get out of the cycle. I feel for those who can't escape. Like my cousin. I started the gym with my Dad who was a body builder and my mindset flipped to gaining weight because I found the muscular look sexy. I have body dysmorphia to some degree. Sometimes I can look at myself and tell myself I'm very thin, or I'm very fat. But I don't entertain those thoughts anymore, it's dangerous. I had a blip last year when I purchased a pair of scales.