I know I have posted about this before. I thought I was over it, but I guess that's not how anxiety works. When I was like 11-12 I had crazy sexual desires. I guess that's normal. I would use anything I could find to get off. My most extreme regret is using my dads, and sisters electric toothbrushes. At the time I didn't see anything wrong with it, clearly. But my 22 year old self now is DISGUSTED and shameful. I know I am not supposed to judge myself, but I can't help it. I feel much anxiety over and I could never tell them. All though I'm not sure it would do much good, as those toothbrushes are long gone, and it's been 12 years. I just can't seem to let it go. I didn't even remember I did it until last year, and it's haunted me ever since. I feel like I'm not normal, and I can't enjoy life. It's always there. Plus my anxiety has to do with confessions in general, so this is really hard for me, but I know it wouldn't change anything if I told them. Ugh. I just want reassurance that I'm not a bad person..
I feel weird and guilty even typing it.
Sorry.