Hi, this is my first post.
I have had GAD for over 16 years and in between times was managing it fairly well with Mirtazapine.
I came off it for a long time and then had to go back on it just over 2 years ago just after my daughter was diagnosed with Autism.
In the past year I have become progressively worse to the point where I was having to have wine to go shopping or do anything outside the house. The GPs answer was, just go for a coffee or an exercise class with friends and it will pass. I have tried so hard, walking miles, eating better the lot and still I got worse.
I started having severe panic attacks around autumn and was really bad over Christmas to the point where I hardly leave the house now and am almost always feeling on edge and anxious.
I've had two short courses of Diazepam 2mg which I use very sparingly but is due to run out.
CPN coming to see me for assessment on Tuesday. Not sure what the next step will be. I've tried almost every AD and cannot tolerate SSRIs - I recall after only one Lustral tablet that I was really agitated. I don't know what they will suggest.
I do my own CBT stuff and mindfulness meditation too. I'm quite scared. I have two young children and feel awful that I feel this way, looking for some hope.