Hello again everyone.

Im still struggling this end with coughing and shoulder pain. Ive tried to not message or look on NMP but I seriously need someone to talk to, im petrified beyond belief. This is something sinister now as the symptoms are persistent and i am losing the will to live, sounds strange when I really dont want to die!

Im spiralling so out of control its even scary to me!! Ive taken the PPI as directed by the GP. Ive stopped smoking now for a week and im still facing lung cancer diagnosis!! Ive been taking my citralopam also and i know they take a while to work. Ut im GENUINELY concerned for my sanity and safety!

I might be over reacting but im so scared right now, im just not myself, I am so low and worried, I cant function or focus on anything besides lung cancer and what my options are and if im terminal!

Please dont judge me or say im crazy, i just need a friend right now!