I'm fairly new on here but badly in need of advice as right now i'm feeling pretty hopeless.
I had bad GAD about 3 years ago for 6 months on various meds before venlafaxine worked for me. Came off altogether in July last year but a series of events has lead to the anxiety being back with a vengeance and I've been diagnosed with depression too (yay),
Velafaxine hasn't helped, mirtazapine helped for 6 weeks or so then stopped and a dose increase didn't help either so last week the gp gave me duloxetine. Well after 4 days on that I was barely able to function so I stopped.
I actually don't believe there is a med that can cure me as I know enough about acceptance of the condition etc to realise that recovery takes time and needs to come from within. However, right now I'm barely concentrating at work (unhappy in my job too but part of that is the negative thinking that comes with anxiety as I was able to cope with the stresses before) and I'm living every day like I'm teetering on the edge of a full on breakdown. I don't want to take time off work as that will mean just sitting at home being hyper aware of myself all day long. I did that last time and it was 6 weeks before I forced myself back and then another 5 months before I felt any better.
I'm seeing a cbt counsellor and practicing midfullness but acceptance is so hard, especially when I ovrcame this before and this time felt better for a few weeks on the mirt. Right now I just see my whole future as filled with anxious feelings all day every day. Apart from work, I've injured my foot wihcih means I can't attend my normal stress busting exercisd classes or even walk the dog. I feel like my friends have forgotten me (not true, we all have busy lives and never see or talk to each other every day and normally if I was feeling myself this wouldn't bother me) and I just feel hopeless and hate the way i feel. Also feel like I'm a let down to my husband and kids as on the surface I seem ok some days but inside I just want to give up.
Any help, advice etc would be appreciated.