I have really bad magical thinking OCD. I worry that thinking and saying things could cause things to happen. It's getting worse now I'm terrified to do anything cause my mind will say if I do this something bad will happen. I fear cancer more than anything I'm scared to death of all kinds of cancer especially breast cancer. I always check breast to make my anxiety stop and I've been having pain there and as I was checking I had a thought that I wanted to feel something when I know I would never want to feel any it would scare me out of mind. My OCD now has me scared that cause my mind thought that it will cause lumps or of cancer. I know it sounds stupid but this is really making worry I would never want to feel anything or have a disease but now that my mind thought that I'm worried any help I would appreciate