I'm a 25 year old father of one, i developed an obsession with health conditions around 7 years ago, it all started with my heart, i would feel a skipped beat throughout the day, and i could always feel my heart beating in my chest. I turned to Dr Google for advice, and boy was that a mistake, it sent me onto a path to hell, i lost my friends, my job, my girlfriend, and all my social skills went out the window, i sat at home all day and night playing video games trying to block out my anxiety, i was failing to overcome the anxiety, until 3 years later i decided enough was enough, i started applying for jobs, i landed one, i started back work and started keeping my mind focused on getting my life back on track, i was doing good, i met a girl i moved out of my moms place, things were really looking good, the thought of my heart and anxiety still were in the back of my head, but i kept pushing forward, that is until 2 years ago, i went out to drink a few beers with some friends, i drank too much and vomited, the strenuous vomiting caused my heart to go into atrial fibrillation, i spent 3 days in the hospital, i had was monitored on a EKG, i had a echocardiogram, xhest xray, and alot of blood work, and i was told i have a healthy heart, after leaving the hospital i began to spiral back into anxiety, again o lost my job and girlfriend and i went back to living under a rock, 2 years go by and i vomit again due to food poisoning and once again i was back in afib and on my way to the hospital, and just like the other time i was monitored and my heart was checked and i was told my heart is healthy and that it must just be a electrical problem, and that tjeres no need to treat my condition because it doesn't haooen enough to be concerning. Well that was 6 months ago and of course my anxiety is still working hard to make me miserable, and to make matters worse i found a few palpable lymph nodes on the lower parts of my neck which i worry about day and night as you can see from my previous threads. I'm always checking my body for markings, bruises, different aches and pains, im always examining my veins and lymph nodes, i have really developed a problem and after seeing many doctors i am basically told it's a mental problem that i have and that i have nothing serious wrong with me, but for someone like me a simple cold can be serious, or a mysterious bruise could be a blood clot, i have went as far as shining a light on my stool to check the color and texture, ive examined my mouth front to back for oral cancer. I can rant all day, i uave endless stories, but i wanted to sgare with you in good detail so that you can see for yourself its a problem that not only you have and that you dont have to face this nightmare alone, its a vicious cycle of endless fear and it can really take a toll on ones life and the lives around you, i know alot of people dont go into much detail so its hard to relate to other peoples problems, so i hope you can relate to my story and tale something positive from it. I would love to hear your stories and advice for controlling anxiety, my best advice would be to find a hobby and friends and stay off Google and pay less attention to your body and symptoms, knowing your body and obsessing over it are two totally different things you need to be able to identify symptoms that pose a risk to your health but don't anticipate those symptoms.
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