Originally Posted by
Mango2
I know this isn't a medical forum and that I shouldn't be seeking reassurance, but I just want an opinion on this...
Sorry for the looong post....!
If you want you can skip the first couple of paragraphs as it only concerns my history with anxiety. But none the less I feel it might be relevant..
I've been suffereing for anxiety for the last 10 years. Been diagnosed as a GAD sufferer but the "base" anxiety for me is health anxiety. 10 years ago, after a stressful period when lots of (generally positive) things were going on, I started having bodily symptoms that made me think about the fact that I'm not immortal. I guess you could call it my first age crisis.
As I had no experience of serious illness before, I was convinced that every single one of the symptoms I experienced back then were serious and would lead to an all to early death. I even told my wife, and later even a doctor that I believed that I had 6 months left to live, despite several doctors reassuring me that I was in perfect physical health. The symptoms I had shifted round, starting with a mild and dull ache in my groin making me believe that I had first MS, then cancer. Of the cancers I thought I first had testicular cancer, and then bowel cancer.
Symptoms shifted and I became obsessed with my lymph nodes and I constantly checked and rechecked the size of them over and over.
With my anxiety really high at this stage I started having scary "feelings of unreality" and I thought I was a gonner there... after that these feelings subsided and shifted into slight tingling on the right side of my body and what I perceived as a heaviness on that side.
After more or less having an emotional breakdown I was prescribed anti-depressants and I started to finally get out of the dark woods.
Since then my life has gone on, but periods of anxiety have struck, but thanks to my experience I've managed to recover relatively quickly.
Sorry for the long intro, I guess thats my story with anxiety.
My status right now is after 2 years of complete stability, I decided to taper down on my ADs in an effort to quit altogether.
Stupidly enough, and this was almost exactly a year ago from now, I also decided to take leave of my job and go back to university so as to finally, after 20 years, finish my degree.
Of course the last year has been rocky, and I've had a couple of bouts with anxiety. After giving up on ADs for about a month, I restarted them again as I was feeling to unwell.
The symptoms I've had have mainly consisted of throat tension and globus, a period of an irritated bladder (during a very important examperiod) and now, I've come down with tingling in hands and feet.
Anyway, I've ranted on here... but the thing is, I'm really scared that I've now got MS as I made the mistake of googling my tingling (a lot) and EVERYTHING points to MS.
The thing is though, I'm starting to think rationally after a week of anguise and anxiety that is starting to peak (I can't sleep at night, I feel depressed and scared, and it is really interfering with my studies).
Whenever I relax, for instance via guided meditation the symptoms disappear. Or if I get my shoulders massaged.
Also yesterday I was out walking and there was a beautiful spring sunset (rather unusual in my country, Sweden, as for the most part water is the only thing that comes from the sky here, either in a wet state or a frozen state.) It was so relaxing and the air was springy warm, that I didn't feel any symptoms at all.
It's really only when I sit down in my sofa that I feel the tingling.
It's also very mild, like small pricks. Lasts for about 30 seconds, goes away for 2 minutes then pops up again...
Also, if I breathe deeply and slowly with my belly, it goes away...
So I'm thinking, do MS symptoms really go away when relaxing and when one breathes deeply??
Or, considering my history, COULD THIS BE ANXIETY???