Like sometimes I think that if I just think about alcoholism, my body will become dependent on alcohol that i have never drunken in my life.
Or I always think that if I don't go on an airplane with my mother, the plane will crash.
I always feel the need to "confess" all my bad thoughts because I feel like something bad will happen if I don't.
I always feel like if I touched something with one hand, I need to touch it with the other hand or something bad will happen.
Or if I imagine a knife going through my head, I will die. (I keep all sharp objects away at all times) My ocd keeps making me imagine a knife chopping up my brains and I feel faint and terrified at the thought.
I have only just began to realize all these things in my life. i never realized how fear driven everything I did was. But is this what they call magical thinking? I will feel better if there is a name for it. Right now I am feeling downright insane.