I was on 20mg citalopram I've been on these for about a year after previously being on sertraline. I take for Gad, panic disorder and depression which is usually caused by my anxiety. I dont like taking medication as I feel like I loose myself. I feel doped up and disconnected from my emotions. That and I would like to be without. I have these momemts where ive just had enough and I think im feeling better and I don't need to be Dependant on medication.
I have previously come off citalopram before I ran out of my 20mg and so started taking my 10mg that I had before and then eventually just stopped but I ended up going through a difficult patch in my life and having to go back on them. This was around the end of June last year I've been back on 20mg with the doctors advice. I did have side effects for a a while again when going back on before but was a longer gap. A few months. Nausea increased anxiety etc.
So I made the ridiculous decision in moment of stupidity to stop taking citalopram about 2 weeks ago. I'd also started a new job (yeah I know I'm an idiot) but its because I was on a high I felt great I thought things were looking up. I was all fine and dandy until a couple of days ago on Tuesday my anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks. I was shaking, couldnt eat, felt sick and I began worrying about everything under the sun again, every tiny thing im over thinking and making myself ill, couldn't focus, couldnt sleep etc.
concerned for the effects on my new job I took 10mg on Tuesday night and 20mg last night. I'm feeling really nauseas again and have terrible dry mouth and heart burn. I'm.concerned they will take a long time to kick in again and that the side effects will last forever again. This is the last thing I need right now :( im concerned wether I've done the right thing by going back on them and wether I could potentially make myself worse and that they may not work the same? Has anyone else done this before and how did you find it? I kind of dont want to see my doctor because he will be annoyed at me for stopping so abruptly and without his help again :(
Thanks Amey