Feeling in such despair someone help me 😢😢

[chatty girl]

Around this time last year about an hour after a large BM I visited the loo for a wee to discover fresh blood dripping in the toilet bowl and from my bottom. It didn't last long but it has ruined my life. I have suffered with piles for years so am quite used to a small amount of blood after a tricky poo but this was different and no poo.

Various tearful visits to my gp, blood tests x2 i think and I'm sent packing saying its probably piles. Blood tests were ok. But I'm in such a state I paid to see a private gastroenterologist, he didn't seem concerned by my story but to be absolutely sure he recommended a flexible sigmoidoscopy on the nhs. I'm an utter mess I'm convinced I have bowel cancer and will leave my baby boy whos 5. I have the test and its clear. But my mind isn't, now my stomach is bad, I start getting cramps and having to run to the loo, bloating all symptoms of ibs. Gp again says yep ibs now try fodmap diet.

I follow the fodmap diet religiously and i get really good results but I'm still convinced its cancer. October I pay again to see a specialist, he says the exact same thing ibs dont worry. Really???? So i take it on board and except in a way ok ibs.

Everything feel apart about a month ago. Firstly its a year since it happened, a year for it to have grown got worse, plus I accidentally saw a tv interview with deborah james, a 35 year old with terminal bowel cancer. If it is not to much of a trigger for anyone read her story, buts of it i could of written even the cbt to help with health anxiety.

I'm in a complete spiral of despair and Tuesday theres a very high chance I'm going to pay another £250 to speak to a private consultant. The nhs wont help me they have told me so, no chance of a colonoscopy. But what if I'm right and i have got bowel cancer, i read on so meny forums how things started and two or three years later thats it, stuffed.

What do I do guys?
Have any of you experienced any thing like this?

If you have made it to the end of this awful post thank you very much ❤❤❤

[ScaredLizard]

First off big hugs! You say yourself that you have suffered with piles for years. You had a large BM and then bleeding. That is pretty standard for piles.

I've had that happen also. Sitz baths are a god send. You fill the tub with an inch or two of hot hot water and sit in it.

IBS sucks and I suffer it too

[Jackrabbit]

I have some experience with this so I'll offer some advice. I should start off saying that I am not a doctor but these methods have helped with intestinal and digestive issues that Ive seen personally with family members. The dieting is a GREAT idea, really. I'm not sure if you do this already but adding fiber to protein shakes has worked wonders for my sister who suffered from what you are going through. Of course follow up with your doctor on this but it seems like it is defintely your anxiety that is causing the bowel cancer thoughts. Do you have vicious nausea and vomiting, back pain that radiates all over, bruising on the stomach? Those are all symptoms to look out for even in the earlier stages. It sounds like you also had a bit of hemorrhoid which caused the bleeding which can come from numerous non life threatening things...such as anxiety and stress. Drink ALOOOT of water I mean more than the recommended amount and also consider taking a probiotic. Stick to these diet changes for at least a month and consider doing exercises such as pilates and yoga to strengthen the core muscles and then see how you feel. Meditation also helps and getting a good nights sleep.

[ScaredLizard]

Oh to add onto what Jackrabbit says. High fiber diet! That will help have BM without pain