I am so with you ladies it is not even funny! So little back story for you.. I had a biopsy of a large jaw cyst during my last pregnancy it came back benign luckily but that set my health anxiety off so much that I almost cancelled my baby shower because I thought I would be gone before baby boy came. Also during my pregnancy my Grandmother past away and so did my Great Aunt both of cancers. So needless to say I was a wreck and still am if something flares up! So far I have thought I had breast cancer, skin cancer, blood clots, lymphoma and that is about it but that is sure enough!!! My last flare up was a few weeks ago for 2 lymph nodes in my neck and I had an ultrasound and it stated they were normal non enlarged lymph nodes! I have been really good since then I just literally have to talk myself down when something feels off but it does help! I have wayyyyy more good days then bad so that is a plus! But for sure the most haunting thing for me is leaving my boys behind! I almost think if I didnt have them it wouldnt be so scary granted I would still be scared but thats the thing I am not scared for me I am scared for them! Ugh! I am 35 and from what I know pretty healthy but I do gotta get some of this baby weight off so I am focusing on taking care of my health and rationalizing with my stupid HA thoughts when they come! Best of luck to you ladies HA is NOOOOO fun!