Hi all
Im feeling pretty upset and so afraid.
For those that know may situation you will know what I'm talking about.
My daughter has told me tonight that she hates me and that she we never forgive me for the overdose in December.
She said she cannot forgive and wont.
I beleive she is being selfish and not wanting to understand what lead me to the suicide, she says she has her own problems and I'm one of them because of the overdose.
She also was abused and wont except that I feel the same feelings and pain from being abused myself when I was a child. She is saying that thats in the past and it her turn now and I'm trying to say I know how you feel, thats not true, Ive never said that.
I have and always will love my daughter uncondional but she thinks she the only one with a problem.
I have a team of 6 people caring for me, cpn doctors etc and taking so many pills to stop my personality disorder that could kill me if i stopped because of bad feelings but she wont except that Im as ill as her and its all about her.
What she dosnt realise is and her dad has had to speak to her tonight that my condition as serious.
I self harm every day at present which is causing problems for us all, I even have the cloud over my head that i may have to go back to the unit again.
She said tonight she dosnt care about how Im feeling , its about her so why talk about my problems all the time. She said she is fed up hearing my hubby and me talking about it all the time.
Im breaking my heart and have just selfharmed in a big way and feel angry at myself that I have done it.
The guilt that I feel anyway is bad enough without her rubbing it in. She's 21 next week, and is taking over our lives, she has moved back in with us because of money but treats it like her own and will not respect my OCD which is through the roof.
Sorry its so long I needed to get it off my chest.
love
ness