Hey all,
Ive had panic attacks since I was in elementary school. They used to have triggers, such as Storms, fear of demons, the dark, then they just subsided by themselves. Now they are back with a vengeance. It all started a couple of months ago. I was perfectly fine, I was getting ready to go on my first vacation so I was trying to make some extra money. I was taking a friend somewhere for some extra cash. It was about an hour drive from my house. On the way there I had a massive panic attack. It lasted forever! I calmed down once I got home but I had some pretty bad anxiety afterwards. I almost didnt go on the trip but I did. I had a panic attack on the way and wanted to turn around but couldnt afford to lose all the money.
Once we got back I couldnt drive without having a panic attack. I was driving for Uber before I left and I cant do it anymore. There is a certain stretch of road that is a huge trigger for me. Its about 20 miles of country road that I just cant get through. Almost every time I have an attack. I was prescribed celexa but Im too afraid to take it. I dont want to deal with the side effects getting on or coming off of them. I am so lost on what to do. Ive been meditating and educating myself. I KNOW that I wont die from these attacks but the constant fear is debilitating. I just dont know what to do.