Hi! I recently had a moment/fear that I was either bipolar, schizophrenic, or going to have hallucinations and not know where I was or do something "crazy". I still have moments of thinking that "THIS IS IT! THIS IS GOING TO BE IT" and the constant questions or rehearsing if I remember all that I did in the day to verify that its "not it". In addition, I also fear that someone else may mistake my anxiety as one of "those things" and believe I've "gone of the deep in"... it can be consuming.
A close friend that also deals with anxiety told me something that I've been clinging to; "Its like you're looking for proof that you're 'losing it' instead of looking at the proof that you're very anchored in reality... its just your anxiety".
Those words kind of changed my perspective a little bit and allowed me to at least acknowledge when I'm searching for the "proof" instead of focusing on "what I am"-- what IS instead of what IF.
Though I'm trying to move away from getting reassurance from doctors and other people that have knowledge in what I THINK I'm enduring, I found it helpful chatting with a few friends that know someone that is bipolar or are bipolar. Hearing their own struggles AND successes helped me to realize that my perspective of bipolar disorder was not only different from their experiences, they've also lead very successful lives with the proper assistance and help managing their symptoms... just like me.