Re: Losing hope for a life...
You know, and I know, you have OCD. You also have depression, from the looks of this last post and the lack of motivation.
Step #1: Get back into your prescriber's office and talk about meds.
Step #2: Get some self-help books to help you keep working on your therapy when you're not in session. I told you about Brain Lock. Another that I use is the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Bourne.
Step #3: Get out of the house. When you feel the urge to sit in front of the computer researching crap about schizophrenia, go out for a walk. Or go play a board game with your kiddo. Or write in a journal. Anything to keep yourself out of the anxiety loop.
Step #4: Put up motivational signs. Remember, you're only in competition with yourself. Set small goals for yourself to accomplish each day. Even if you spend only 15 minutes less on the computer today than you did yesterday, that's still an accomplishment. The better you start feeling about yourself, the easier it will be to pull yourself out of the depression.
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