Hi.
Recently I made a post about my rabies fear.
Finally, after two weeks it got better.
I don't have anxiety or obsession about this situation.
However, three days ago I happened to be near that place where it all started. It was around 9pm and usually there are no people. It's really quiet place. There is a mansion house which is now a school. Also there are some other small buildings, crop fields and behind that mansion there are like 10 really big trees, like a small park.
Sunset was really beautiful and I really like to walk there, so I thought I should stop the car and just walk for 5 minutes. I remember how I walked behind one building and laughed how I should be careful, may be some mysterious bat bites me from these trees. And then I noticed a car driving past that building with loud music. I stand there for like 15 seconds, I thought may be the car was coming behind that building, but no. Then I took my phone and it got my attention for a minute may be. And then IT HAPPENED! I got an idea. How can I be sure that bat didn't just bite me? I looked my hands, everything, there was no bite, no bat, no bat noise.
Next day I decided to go back there, because I go to gym near that place. It was really uncomfortable to be there.
And yesterday I went there again and this happened again. I was looking at these big trees and felt like a mosquito bite me and my brain told me... BATS, RABIES. I went to my car but had to go back and check twice that there are no bats and I calmed down.
Now I think I got rabies three days ago when I first time visited this place again.
Now I'm just so confused. I go to forest almost daily and for hours. All kind of bugs and things bite me, scratches on hands. But nothing, no obsession that may be a bat bite me. I've been at this place hundreds times, during the day or night, I've never seen a bat there. But now these trees triggers everytime.
What should I do? I take many herbs for my anxiety and quit coffee and it really helps for anxiety. But what can I do with this trigger?