Anxiety and constant worry
I'm going down a slippery slope and really want to pull myself out of it before its too late, but it's difficult. I know all expectant mothers probably have a little anxiety, but it's all I think about.
I feel stressed most days because the list of things we need to buy, the stuff that needs doing to the house just keeps growing by the day! I've been painting loads the last few weeks, as I'm on school holidays, but it's really becoming difficult with the bending ect my stomach hurts. Plus the fumes aren't great!
My partner has done a lot but has to fit it around work ect, I know my dad would help if I asked as he's a good decorator but I don't like putting people out.
I'm finding it difficult to sleep, or hold down any conversation about anything other than this. I don't want to turn into a maniac but I feel like nothing will be done before baby arrives and i just keep crying! The thought of going back to work is not helping either, but maybe I need time in another environment to keep my sanity.
Needed to vent.
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