i have ibs. well feel like, but not exactly fully diagnosed. because there would be days that i am constipated and days that i have diarrhea, an alternating cycle. and they all started this year, starting march 2017. because of my stress and health anxiety.
around march 2017, i first experienced the most sinister symptom i probably ever had: a bloody stool.
before that certain event, i was always straining every bm and not caring the effects of that action.
i remember clearly, i felt something like a sharp glass running through my anal lining (?) is when i got my firsy bloody bm.
of course, as someone with ha, i immediately googled and of course, it said cancer again. like always.
i was very stressed that day and went to the doctor after three days, because i still get the bloody bm.
the doctor performed a digital exam on me and he said didnt feel lumps, although he said that most likely i have hemmies or piles given my age and my family history.
btw, i'm 17 & no family history of bowel ca.
so well. that really didnt comfort me. eh. i was still having bloody bm. the doctor asked for a colonoscopy just to be fully sure i was free from anything sinister and to have a right diagnosis on what caused my bloody bms.
i didnt have the luxury to have a colonoscopy and some doctor friend also told me that i didnt need to have a colonoscopy right away so i set it aside.
the blood in my bms arent super heavy. its usually like a few small drops of blood on the toilet water and is not mixed in with my stools at all.
i think its caused by an anal fissure? and btw, the bloody bms only lasted for 1 and a half week
so there, i eased my mind with that and just brushed off my worries.
fast forward to earlier, aka 6 months after my first bloody bm, my toilet was again, looked kind of a few drops of blood mixed with water? like a really pale red? i'm not sure if my eyes just fooled me or not. i dont use tissue because i have a bidet at home so i really couldnt tell if it was blood or not.
if it's blood, i'm scared it'll be something worse now.
do you know how i can cope with this or do you think i have some sinister disease :( sorry for the lengthy message