Hi everyone...it's late. I'm alone and feeling sorry for myself...
Still getting the early-morning waking syndrome. Too much time on my hands. I need to get some kind of work but haven't worked for a long time. Helped to stuff envelopes at my CMHT yesterday.Only an hour's worth. All very surreal. I'm involved in their newsletter group. Creepy going there though. One of my biggest fears? Going into hospital after managing to avoid the 'loony bin' for 25 years...
It can be a jungle out there and all the ropes are taken! I used to think I could be King of the Swingers. Now I'm more than happy for a private perch!
OK....this is serious. If you are reading this...many thanks. If you can refrain from judgement...even more thanks.
I have days when I fear face to face contact.I keep thinking the other person can read my mind. It's ridiculous I know. Does anybody else have this at any time?
Guilt. Wish I could kill it stone dead. It creeps in by the back door and I'm afraid to do anything which might stir it up. Must keep it in proportion...but how? Any ideas, comments or acknowledgement most welcome.
love and best wishes
Allan59 (sober and still not smoking)
"All shall be well and all shall be well and all manner of things shall be well"
Marcus Aurelius