Hi I am Lisa
Hi I am Mev,I am mid 30's and I live in hampsire.
I have only just come across this site and its reassuring to know that I am not alone.
I have a wonderful husband and a lovely son aged 7.
My panic only started after I had my son, before I had him I was carefree and worried about things only when I knew there was something to worry about, since I had him, from time to time I have had an illness / symptoms of a condition and before I have got it checked out I convince myself its something serious and panic and worry till the point I have severe panic attacks.
I had severe post natal depression after I had my son which lasted about 3 years, and never been fully cured from the panic since. I usually get several months and even years when everything seems to be ok, then just when I least expect it, it comes back.
Just a few of the things that have happened, I found a lump in breast which I worried for 6 weeks was breast cancer, turned out to be fatty tissue, I pulled a muscle in my chest, but convinced I was going to have heart failure, I have had pins and needles in my feet which I thought was the start of ms, I could name at least 10 more examples.
It seems as time of stress I focus on any abnormality in my body and fixate on it constantly to the point where I make the problem seem worse.
At the moment I have been suffering from dizzy heads for 6 weeks, been to the doctors who thought it was a middle ear infection, no tests were done, I was kept given anti-sickness / dizziness pills and told to come back in 2 weeks if not gone, this happened several time, i worried about it, and then I started suffering from headaches, I have had a head ache every day now for the past 10 days, of course I am convinced now its a brain tumour !!!! as it generally starts in the same place at the back of my head, and then by the time I have thought about it for a few hours its taken over my whole head and constantly there. No matter how much I tell myself its probably not a tumour, because I also have a slightly stiff neck and imagine its a stress/tension headache, I still worry about the slight chance that it is something serious. I worry myself to the point where I want to be sick.
I have a doctors apponintment on Tuesday and know that I will go and feel better for about an hour then the panic/dread will start again.
Typing this out I know in my head I sound like I am nuts, but it feels so real and its taken over my life and I have no quality of life at the moment.
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Mev,
DONT WORRY BE HAPPY
