Yeah, I came to the conclusion - the same conclusion Red came to in this movie. I'm done living in this prison, being more afraid of being afraid than I am of being critically sick. Chop my foot off. Remove half my face. Whatever! It, anything, can't be worse than dealing with Health Anxiety and letting it dominate my life, making me crazy, making me doctor-hop like an alcoholic hopping the bars. Yeah, I'm done. It broke me. So......what Red says here. I finally reached the end. (By the by, this movie was filmed just up the hill from the prison I teach at in the old prison that we replaced when it was built).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtwXlIwozog