Hi,
I have my smear test booked for tomorrow. I have yearly ones as I've had mild changes for the last two years so they just monitor it. But, I can't stay rational and see it as a monitoring and helpful process. Instead I feel dread, withdrawn and totally freaked out. I've stayed off university twice this week already, and I know if the results are abnormal again I will be so upset.
Has anyone had similar experience with anything like this who can help me stay rational? I appreciate this is a womans thing but for me it is the catalyst for major HA relapse two years running. It's like I know what's in store for me and it's really getting me down.
I'm terrified the changes will be worse. My friends keep telling me not to get too frightened as 4 of them have had the same thing and had worse changes plus treatment. But I am just obsessed by it all.
Any advice really appreciatedx