So there are several mental illnesses you've been diagnosed with? Bi-polar, OCD, general anxiety etc....? You're on medication for bi-polar and have recently started CBT again. Are you on any other meds? What does your therapist think about online forums and reassurance seeking? I ask because its apparent you're suffering greatly, especially lately with the wedding and nothing said or advised is making a difference. Like I said, dozens of members on several forums have all been advising and recommending methods for years to no avail. Have you spoken with your GP about your meds and if there's anything else they can try to help? Have you considered one on one help in addition to CBT?
In the end though, I guess if this is how you deal with it, and you have for nearly half your life, it is what it is
Good luck and as always...
Positive thoughts
Last edited by Fishmanpa; 13-06-19 at 00:18.__________________
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Yes I posted about the bipolar a while ago but I don’t suffer as such it was a one off episode. My therapist is happy for
me to use forums as it is a tool to help my anxiety. The gp blames wedding stress but the psychiatrist sees me once a year too but they don’t offer any Cbt I receive it private and have to pay. I can’t have anything like anti depressants as this was discussed previously.
Phil is obviously able to work, maintain (own?) a property, manage his finances, travel (short-haul flights), and is engaged to be married. Pretty "high-functioning" IMO.
I don't mean to judge but those who shout the loudest are rarely those most in need of help, and for Phil, the means (ie, talking about his problems) appears to be more important than the end (ie, implementing/following advice).
I rest my case.
KK
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Last edited by Fishmanpa; 13-06-19 at 02:27.__________________
"Eat. Drink. Enjoy the work you do. Be thankful for the blessings God gives you in this life. Live, love and seek out the things that bring your heart joy. The rest is meaningless... Like chasing the wind." King Solomon
The best help is the help you give yourself! http://cbt4panic.org/
I agree with the high functioning element. I've often said just because someone posts a lot doesn't indicate they are the worst because many of them also have the activities in life (as you mention) that are warning signs to GP's when we back away from them. To be able to maintain routine, the daily life, is at least something and better than those of us who spend years locked away in houses. The same with the perceived extremity of a compulsion, it's less so when you look at the true impact on quality of life.
This isn't to say phil isn't suffering, he is. But I find on NMP people judge based on how many times you appear on here and not the whys.
One of the problems with these disorders, like other areas of life, they are prone to ostrich people thinking. It's hard to face the potential of more anxiety by rocking that boat when you have yourself in a place where you have found a groove you can cope with. It's a problem I suffer with too. Having known how bad it can get you feel like it might be better not to push on with the stressful lifestyles of the past but it can also mean not re-establishing what you could actually achieve. It's a hard one to judge.
I suspect this also feeds phil's inertia. There is no "rock bottom" when you are coping/managing in some way. This can mean not facing it.
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I can’t get over the urge to change the letter box and front door. I have become worried everything coming through the letterbox is contaminated? I stopped worrying about this for a bit after I accepted the envelope maybe never came from the bin however my ocd has decided maybe it did come from the bin and everything has toilet germs? I know I have discussed this a lot but I feel I need this letter box changed.
I am still struggling with the letter box. I fear even if I replace the letter box what about all the items come in the door which could contaminate areas of the house?
I mean I can’t confirm a year ago if it came from the bin but my ocd decided that the envelope did come from the bin and that has blocked toilet germs so my house could be ruined
So my worry is more needs replacing my bank card for example comes with me for years until I get a new one so I fear even a new letter box won’t stop the germs spreading
Phil, your ocd is wrong. You know what you need to do, why don’t you write down what you need to do instead.
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