I'm not sure about dependance as such but I do seem to have an addictive personality type. I do really well when I'm on holiday (for example) and literally cannot get away with drinking as much. I drink about 2 bottles of white wine a day at home - mostly on my own. I'm really determined to cut back because i am also overweight for the first time in my life which isn't exactly great for my confidence[:I] I work from home and have a young baby, as well as two teenagers, so there is also the loneliness. I'm going to try really hard to make some new friends (my two best friends moved to opposite ends of the country just as my marriage broke up - it was devastating).
I'm actually quite an optimistic person and even close acquaintances don't believe I suffer from anxiety because I put up such a front. Nor does anyone know about the drinking.
Yet, freedom, yet thy banner, streams like the thunderstorm, against the wind.
Byron