Hi All
I just need to vent.
A while back my mum was having pain in her chest.
She was sent to the hospital to have her heart checked
and they gave here an exray.
That day they said everything was fine just make and
appointment to see your GP.
In the meantime she has had a mammer gram and a
camra put down her throat.
She has been told the she has a hiatus hernia,
She was over the moon with this because it is somthing
that she can deal with. (she thought that she had the
big C:(
In the last week 2 letters have arrived, one from the exray
of hear chest saying they have found signs of a recent inffecton.
The other from the mammer gram saying they have found
somthing. She has gone to the hospital today over the mammer
gram, but has not had time to deal with the other.
My anxiaty levels are getting higher. During the day I can try
to think positive thoughts, but last night when I was asleep
I cannot control the way I think. Symptoms of anxiaty woke me up.
I was sooo angry, I thought, don't do this to me now I need to
be there for my mum.
What you all have to understand is that my mum is not just my
mum, she is my best friend.
When I first started with PA my mum was my rock but I could see she was hurting:(she was so upset seeing me go through it all so I don't tell her anything now.
She is going through hell right now,( I know what she is thinking:(
I am really hurting right now and have alot of emotions running
around in my head. One of these being guilt.
I feel guilty because I'm thinking of my own health, but
thats only because I want to be strong for my best friend
and help her get through this.
I know I have to keep those positive thoughts going and
I will because my best freind needs me.
Thank you all for reading this it has helped just writing it dowm.
You are all special people and no matter what life throws at you
Remember you are not alone.
LOVE JILLXX
Friends are those rare people who ask how
we are and then wait to hear the answer. (Thats my mum)