Hi. Started on 15mg Mirtazapine daily (shifted from previous SSRI after reduction) and it's been the worst time of my life. Steadily feeling worse daily- despair, anger, very deep depression, feeling unreal, feel I am insane. Cannot cope from hour to hour at home, keep 'losing it' & screaming/throwing stuff/punching my face/lashing out. I can't cry anymore, sometimes there's tears but no real crying. Just grief, anger and numbness. I have two kids to care for and I am worried for their safety and wellbeing. My husband is mostly here at home too, but not always. I have Aspergers which is a big part of the cause. It's all really unbearable. I have to wait until 20th December to see the psychologist again meanwhile I'm holding on hour to hour. Any practical advice please. We have no family or close friends to help and I have to be at home because of my kids who other have additional support needs.