Fear of family members becoming ill :(
I always get like this as Christmas but I just heard about someone dying in their late forties to c-word and it has triggered me.
I am so worried something bad will happen to someone in my family. Especially my husband. I am worried just thinking about it will cause it to happen. When I was pregnant earlier this year I was worried I would lose the baby to a missed miscarriage, and that is exactly what happened :( its like I had a premonition. I am scared to try for another baby.
I love my husband so much and I can't imagine a life without him. However, I am living a life in fear and it isn't fair on either of us. I am always asking him if he has checked himself out (men's stuff) and I get worried if he has a back ache or head ache.
My husband is fit and healthy and doesn't smoke or drink, but I worry cause his Dad passed away suddenly to a heart attack aged just 55 and he didn't drink or smoke either (but was under a lot of pressure as his Mom was sick and apparently had a fatty diet which my husband doesn't have)
I also worry cause my husband has an underractive thyroid. He is on medication for it, but I still worry.
You hear about younger people getting ill and it worries me so much.
Does anyone else have this? It tends to go hand in hand with my own health anxiety, its like it spills over to others.
Feeling really freaked out at the moment and could just do with a listening ear and someone to say that I am not the only person going through these fears.
Thanks x
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