Hello everyone,

I have a dreaded gastroscopy tomorrow morning....I've never had one before...and I don't want to be sedated because of the time my drink was spiked at University and it was a horrible feeling....so many horrible things happened to me that night and I was powerless and I don't remember them. So I never want that feeling again.

So I'm hoping to just go for the throat spray...

I was bad with health anxiety around 2009 and this place got me through it, which I'm always thankful for, but all this has set things off again.

I have to go for one because of Chronic Heartburn on and off for years and it's now turned into stomach ache and trouble getting my food down without it getting stuck.

It all feels very sore and inflamed as it is and the thought of them shoving something down there while it's so sore doesn't feel like a good idea.

I'm also petrified of the results...I've cancelled it twice but I'm in so much fear, I need answers so I'm just going to go.

Is it really as awful as I've been reading? I've heard of people needing transfusions and having awful reactions to the sedatives and apparently it was an endoscopy complication that killed Joan Rivers...

I'm literally bricking it, I can't stop crying and it's all making my symptoms worse, I feel like I could be sick... I don't know what to do...