Hey everyone.

I have anxiety and have developed a fear of swallowing, which makes me hesitate in the phase right before the food goes into the esophagus (which is also the stage where I can't bring the food back up. So call it the point of no return). I am able to initiate the swallow normally, its just the above stage that sends me into a shock.

It always ends up going down correctly eventually, but I fear that this panic and hesitation can make the food go into my windpipe.

If I can be convinced that the panic/hesitation won't cause the food to go down the wrong pipe then I will be able to eat again.

Can someone please confirm whether my theory and fear is irrational or whether I should worry about the panic.

I know that there isn't anything physical going on because when I am not thinking about it I am able to swallow normally. I can also drink water very easily which is why I know it is psychological.

I will be most grateful. Please convince me!