Hi everyone,

I'm hoping someone can help me. I've got a past history of anxiety /panic attacks /derealisation, which started after my mum was murdered when I was 17.

For the last 7 years I've been really well and I count myself so lucky. During this time, I've met the love of my life, got married and I've been able to keep up with my medication to keep me on track.

The problem is, I had a beautiful little girl exactly a week ago and all if my symptoms have returned. I know it's linked with the baby blues but I feel incredibly lost at the moment. I keep looking at her thinking, "I can't do this. I want my life back. What have I done?" I know this sounds terribly selfish and i hate that im having tgese thoughts. I'm also filled with fear sometimes when I look at her. Then there are times that I just stare at her beautiful face and I'm okay again - but these moments are fleeting.

Does anyone on here have any advice /guidance for me? Thanks for listening,
Josie