I am currently unsure what to do. I have been suffering with problems with food all my life... worsening and more specifically from the age of 10 (I am now 19)... I have always hated food I just can't stomach it... I'll take it or leave it I've never actually been hungry or bothered and never really liked anything but bland foods. Over the years this anxiety and issue has gotten worse... recently my weight has plummeted so so low and i have lived the last 3 years on only cereal, biscuits, bread, potato and yogurt... however only in very small amounts... im lucky if I consume 1000 calories a day. Things were going well until I finished secondary school and went to college, here I started to do a course in child care and would have to go to a nursery to get experience... many of the times there was stomach bugs going round and my anxiety would be increased, I would worry what if I got sick, what if I was physically sick, and so I started limiting not just what I ate but the amount in the hope as long as I don't eat too much I won't be sick... one day a child was actually violently sick right next to me and this made things even worse. I instantly thought I could be sick. After realising how much this course was affecting me I pulled out but the damage had already been done. Since pulling out at the age of 16 everything has just spiralled out of control. The amount I eat got less and less and I started losing lots of weight as a consequence... the fear of food has just been getting worse and worse... I don't just not like certain tastes and textures of food but I worry what if I eat something that has a certain ingredient in that it could make me sick, what if it's got too much sugar and irritates my stomach and makes me feel really sick, what if it's too greasy and make me feel really sick what if it's too heavy or has too much dairy... I don't even drink anything but water in the fear a drink could be too heavy or acidic on my stomach and make me feel sick I feel like over the last few years that im not just afraid of being sick but afraid of feeling very sick too... theres been tines over the years where i eat something and i feel so physically sick ive had to sit outside, i can't move or speak as i just feel so unwell, I worry if I eat too much I will feel or be sick even to the point where as I'm eating I sometimes break crumbs to try and avoid eating too much, I can't eat any of it whole either, even the shortbread biscuit I eat broken down Into little pieces to try and make it easier for my stomach to digest. I've recently been thinking about hypnotherapy and came across Patrick molloy http://www.thefoodhypnotist.co.uk/ He seems to specialise in helping people with food issues... but I don't know if it will help. I just feel if I was no longer worried about being sick i could eat anything again.

I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way I do.. so limited to what they eat ... so underweight and lethargic yet can't eat more due to the severe fear ... feel so sick everyone they eat? Also has anyone had hypnotherapy... if so who with? Does it help??? Thank you