Re: Relapse! Coping, Symptoms and Tips.
Originally Posted by
Carnation
I'm feeling a little anxious today.
As I said in my previous post, our boiler broke down about a week ago. Right in the crux of minus temperatures, so not brilliant timing.
I dealt with it pretty well. Collected a load of portable heaters, put the emersion on for hot water etc.
But today an engineer is coming to assess the damage and its obviously making me feel anxious.
We were supposed to have been informed yesterday whether it was morning or afternoon, but hey, guess what? They didn't. So I set my alarm very early and sods law, they've informed me they are coming this afternoon. And up to 6pm!! The situation has thrown my meal times out for the whole day. I had my breakfast early and we will have an early lunch and probably late dinner.
Now I don't know why but I obsess about the mealtimes. I'm ok with half an hour each way, but when it goes into an hour or over it makes me feel panicky.
It's not like I'm going to die if I don't eat at 1pm or 7pm as Mr C tells me so often, but my brain goes into all sorts of weird thoughts.
The same with sleep. I worry about not getting the standard quota of sleep and think something terrible will happen to me if I don't.
I had to be up early today incase the engineer came first thing and now my meals are all over the place as well.
Let alone someone coming in the house when we have been so strict about people entering our home.
It's definitely not good for my anxiety.
But it's got to be done and I've taken all the necessary precautions.
So it's not my best day today and I'm trying to keep distracted.
I can completely understand how you feel about mealtimes Carnation. I think that we construct routines because the very fact they are rigid makes them predictable. And predictability is safer than chaos. Ditto your sleep. I have a thing going with my online workout, that if for some valid reason I don't do it on a given day, it will spell disaster. Look after yourself and hopefully tomorrow will be better for you.
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