Fishman, we'd all probably fill pages and pages with family issues and relations that affect our mental health.
I think your advice of concentrating on me and Mr C is the right approach. I can't help wondering how families become this way and what makes one brother so different to another or aunties and uncles that seem more distant than a woman or bloke that lives down the road.
I know I shouldn't let it bother me. They are how they are and it is what it is. So sad though.
I'm going to say something really slushy stuff now.
You people on here, writers and readers are truly wonderful souls. You struggle with your own demons and there you are lending an ear and words of advice to other people.
Pulisa is a prime example of this. (sorry, I'm embarrassing you now). But you have a mountain of tasks and worries with your son and daughter, let alone your own issues, and living with an avaocado bathroom suite. And there you are on the forum helping other people with theirs. You rarely moan and if you do, you make a joke of it most of the time. You suffer in silence most of the time despite many offerings to offload, you choose to channel your energy into helping others.
I also get some heart warming private messages from readers and they don't realise how much that means to me.
It will be 7 years next month since I had my breakdown down and probably a good 7 years run up to that with signs I was heading in that direction.
And if I had the knowledge and understanding I have now, I would have been aware that I suffered with anxiety and depression for most of my life.
The words sensitive and quiet child covered a multitude of anxieties. A workaholic covered and helped distract from a troubled mind. My lack of social skills showed an indication that I was never comfortable in my surroundings. I thought many a time there was something different about me but couldn't quite put my finger on it.
Then 7 years ago I discovered NMP and there you all were. Like-minded people like myself. My family, my friends. Thank you for all being there. see I told you it would be slushy.
Ok, so we are different, we are delicate souls that have to live with issues. But our souls are beautiful and we are compassionate about the things we do. We feel too much of everything. Our feelings are magnified and that's why we feel everything so much. It also makes us excel in our roles as human beings and we should be proud of everything we have achieved. If people don't get us, they are not our kind of people. Your gut will guide you away from bad people and situations and your kind heart will keep feeding your soul. Be proud!