Thanks Carnation
ive done the sleep meditation (there’s not much I haven’t tried over the years)
your right I need to lessen the importance off sleep and try and think off it in a light hearted way. If I do I do, I’ll sleep when I’m tired.
I think sleeping for me takes me back to when menopause struck ! I suffered badly with anxiety/depression badly that at the beginning off it all if affected my sleep & appetite to the point I maybe slept about 2 hrs a night for what seemed like forever. So since menopause I’ve always suffered with blips better days and bad days and this is another thing I have to accept. Anxiety as taken it’s toll on me, so much so that I’ve become what some people would call a serious person probably because anxiety as taken life away from me. I also suffer now from social anxiety and on bad times I hate bumping into people, visiting family, functions or even people calling round to our house. I envy people even when I’m at the shops, I look at them and think they look confident.
i remember telling my neighbour one day that I suffered anxiety, her reply was
“ well I’d never off guessed, you go to work all smart in your suit get in your car and drive”
another was my Therapist
“ when he got to know me he said I come over confident and a whelth of knowledge and easy to chat to
i said I’d had years off practice, yet sometimes I feel I’m dying inside.
re the gardening
is it plants for the ground your starting to grow?
today was a much better day, I knew we were having to do a food shop so I got my head around that when I got up and decided A wasn’t getting a hold off me today, yesterday it won but not today.
i have to think, even people without A have down days