Relapse! Coping, Symptoms and Tips.

[clio51]

Thanks Carnation
ive done the sleep meditation (there’s not much I haven’t tried over the years)
your right I need to lessen the importance off sleep and try and think off it in a light hearted way. If I do I do, I’ll sleep when I’m tired.
I think sleeping �� for me takes me back to when menopause struck ! I suffered badly with anxiety/depression badly that at the beginning off it all if affected my sleep & appetite to the point I maybe slept about 2 hrs a night for what seemed like forever. So since menopause I’ve always suffered with blips better days and bad days and this is another thing I have to accept. Anxiety as taken it’s toll on me, so much so that I’ve become what some people would call a serious person probably because anxiety as taken life away from me. I also suffer now from social anxiety and on bad times I hate bumping into people, visiting family, functions or even people calling round to our house. I envy people even when I’m at the shops, I look at them and think they look confident.
i remember telling my neighbour one day that I suffered anxiety, her reply was
“ well I’d never off guessed, you go to work all smart in your suit get in your car and drive”
another was my Therapist
“ when he got to know me he said I come over confident and a whelth of knowledge and easy to chat to
i said I’d had years off practice, yet sometimes I feel I’m dying inside.

re the gardening
is it plants for the ground your starting to grow?

today was a much better day, I knew we were having to do a food shop so I got my head around that when I got up and decided A wasn’t getting a hold off me today, yesterday it won but not today.
i have to think, even people without A have down days ��

[clio51]

Thanks Carnation
ive done the sleep meditation (there’s not much I haven’t tried over the years)
your right I need to lessen the importance off sleep and try and think off it in a light hearted way. If I do I do, I’ll sleep when I’m tired.
I think sleeping 💤 for me takes me back to when menopause struck ! I suffered badly with anxiety/depression badly that at the beginning off it all if affected my sleep & appetite to the point I maybe slept about 2 hrs a night for what seemed like forever. So since menopause I’ve always suffered with blips better days and bad days and this is another thing I have to accept. Anxiety as taken it’s toll on me, so much so that I’ve become what some people would call a serious person probably because anxiety as taken life away from me. I also suffer now from social anxiety and on bad times I hate bumping into people, visiting family, functions or even people calling round to our house. I envy people even when I’m at the shops, I look at them and think they look confident.
i remember telling my neighbour one day that I suffered anxiety, her reply was
“ well I’d never off guessed, you go to work all smart in your suit get in your car and drive”
another was my Therapist
“ when he got to know me he said I come over confident and a whelth of knowledge and easy to chat to
i said I’d had years off practice, yet sometimes I feel I’m dying inside.

re the gardening
is it plants for the ground your starting to grow?

today was a much better day, I knew we were having to do a food shop so I got my head around that when I got up and decided A wasn’t getting a hold off me today, yesterday it won but not today.
i have to think, even people without A have down days 👍

[Carnation]

Clio51,

I've had the same said about me, "so calm and confident".
"Err", I used to think. Like you I'd be churning up inside.
I've been through the menopause already, got it at a very early age and thought at the time I was having a complete meltdown. And thinking back the symptoms were so similar to anxiety. It's just been an ongoing battle since then.
As for the gardening, it's a slow process at the moment.
Probably due to the lack of heat which will change at the weekend.
All my lettuces have come through, but tomatoes still reluctant to grow even though I can see a titch of a leaf poking through.
I'm going to divide the lettuces, keep some under cover in my garage next to the window and put the others in troughs that hangover the garden fence.
I'm not even going to bother with the ground as I haven't found that successful in the past.
I'm going to do the same with the tomatoes.
Potatoes take a long time to shoot, but they will go in the ground. My other green stuff hasn't shown at all yet, but we've had wintery temperatures.

As a rule of thumb, anything that pokes out of the ground, protect. Root veggies in the ground.
Looking forward to that lovely weather coming. x

[Carnation]

So I've been thinking, "uh oh"
I can't help thinking there's more to this coronavirus situation that meets the eye. The coronavirus has been around a long, long time.
Yes, there is a virus, yes people have died. (notice announcements say with, not from. And with underlying conditions.
But what I'm referring to is the rules and regulations.
Let's take contamination and the implications of possibly catching this from any type of surface.
Do you really know how much that entails?
About hundreds of items a day.
If that was so, wouldn't we all have it?
A few examples, letters through the post, all the food from the supermarket, your car, your pet, the ground you walk on. And now an announcement that you don't need to wear a mask.
Then there's the 2 metre distance. Shops have marked that area, but you have to step forward to pay, put your items on the counter, pick them up and touch that door handle as you leave.
Then there's people wearing gloves. But hey they take them off when they get home, maybe put them in the bin if disposable, but the things you touch before you get to doing that. Then you unpack your food items and many of them, maybe you might wear gloves while doing this, but the moment you make a cuppa, you are touching that item again.
Seriously, you can not get through the day unless you go through a box of gloves for every task you do. And that's just you, what about your family? Even if on your own are the people delivering taking strict precautions.
This makes me wonder also about the keyworkers, wouldn't they all get the coronavirus?
Going on their information we would ALL have it.
So my point is.....
The Government has taken complete control over the people and used this virus to do so. They've got us where they want us.
For one thing, no more cash. They've been wanting that for ages.
No one working on a cash situation like market traders, car boots, antique dealers, casual gardeners, maintenance, decorators, trades on the side.
No support for any unofficial people living or working here.
All supermarkets were slumping, now back in the game.
They want rid of the mass of vehicles on the road.
They want to keep a check on your finances, everything to go through the bank via cards. They already shut many banks to make withdrawing cash difficult for most people.
Good excuse to cut down services and supplies.
Street lighting already switched off or dimmed down at night, won't be surprised if this becomes a 10pm switch off altogether.
They've killed the pubs and restaurants, so socialising outside of the house will never be the same.
My assumption is they are using the virus to take full control over our actions and the way we live or lived.
Read 'Nineteen Eighty Four' George Orwell.

[Carnation]

Today I'm trying to calm my health anxiety.
I've had tenderness for the last few days in the bass of my skull and top of the head. Not a headache as such, more sore, so didn't take much notice.
Last night, about 2 hours after eating dinner I was looking at my phone and the words became distorted, even if I stretched my screen. I looked up at the tv and the picture was a slightly distorted and when I looked to the right my view was blocked by what seemed moving blobs, a bit like a lava lamp moving up and down but smoky.
I was getting panicky and couldn't understand why because I'd had a big meal and a good amount of fluids throughout the day.
I do what I normally do when anxious. Go and look in the mirror and I couldn't see anything suspect, but I took a bit of chocolate and shortly afterwards, it disappeared and everything back to normal.
Now I'm left wondering what it was.
Was it a migraine? Am I diabetic? Was it something I ate?
Mr C did his normal thing of saying "its nothing to worry about", but my anxiety is telling me I can't forget about this. My head feels fine today, but I was prodding and massaging it yesterday and worried I may have caused my vision problems. My sight is ok today too.
I've been tested for diabetes in the past and all was ok, so maybe it was a migraine or what I had for dinner. I had liver and bacon and of course I looked up liver and too much can cause sight problems.
I'm carrying on as normal, but the niggle in my brain won't let it rest.

[YoullNeverWalkAlone]

Hi Carnation...now I know what you meant when you said you felt yuk yesterday....It sounds very much like a migraine aura to me but without the banging headache only the tenderness on the skull. I’ve had them a few times in the past, scared the shit out of me the first time I had it, mine last about 20 minutes to half hour and then just disappear, I know a few people that get them, some get headaches, some don’t...I’m absolutely sure it’s nothing to worry about but like you say it’s that nigglying voice that won’t shut up that gets on your nerves...give it time Carnation and you’ll forget about it..Mr C reaction would be the same as my hubbies, oh how I wish I could think like him...

You will be absolutely ok Carnation so no more worrying.....xxxxxx

[Carnation]

Thank you YNWA x
I've been ok up until this evening and now feel like I'm wearing an elastic band around my forehead and my eyes feel sore and heavy. So I'm assuming it's been some sort of migraine Migraine. The base of the skull is no longer hurting and the tenderness on the top of the head has almost gone, but it's obviously moved to my temples.
I'm sure I'm boring everyone to tears, but it helps me to know about migraines as I don't normally suffer with them.

[glassgirlw]

Carnation do you struggle with allergies at all? I get some of those same symptoms during springtime as things start blooming. The tightness in the forehead and heavy eyes. Maybe something like that is happening? Hugs for you....from a distance of course

[Carnation]

Hi glassgirlw

Yes I do, I suffer with hay-fever.
I never thought of that, thank you glassgirlw x

[glassgirlw]

Of course! I’ve only just started developing springtime allergies over the last few years. Each year they’re a little worse. This year is the worst yet for me, and of course coincides with this Coronavirus so it’s been triggering the anxiety a little more this year. I understand what you’re going through for sure!!