Relapse! Coping, Symptoms and Tips.

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Yes, Mrs. C.... I know that feeling all too well. And when the head starts causing a lot of physical problems in the body, that's when I usually break down and take a tranquilizer. The body NEEDS that relief so it can rest and recover. My doc even told me that during stressful times, I should take a pill BEFORE the physical symptoms start to head them off before they happen. I always wait too long because I don't want to become dependent, but during times when I need them, I'm now allowing myself to use them. And when my husband notices things getting bad, he gently reminds me to "be kind to myself" and take the help.

I know you are against medication, but I'm just sharing that, yes, I do know how you feel and how miserable it is. I hope you can find a way out of this soon.
Sue

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Thank you again Sue x
I'm going to do some painting this evening and let my imaginative run wild, so God knows what will come out on the page.
If only I wasn't so sensitive, I'm sure that would be the answer to a lot of my woes.
I spend the afternoon changing over my winter clothes for summer and it got to the point where I was tempted to throw the lot in the bin. I've lost interest in my appearance and what I wear and I'm sure that will apply to a lot of people in Lock-down.
I thought, "why do I need all this clothes? I don't go out, everything closed anyway" and I gave up socialising quite a while ago. It's just stuff, clutter and I'm pretty much a jeans and t. shirt sort of gal now.
Most of them have bad memories or don't fit.
Different in the days of going to work or when in my managerial role.
How times change, I can't even manage my little finger these days.
No doubt my gloomy days will pass, but for now I'm grateful for the kind words and encouragement. x

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Me too on throwing 90% of my clothes into the trash! I have SO many professional outfits, and more pairs of dressy shoes than I care to count, but now I am just jeans and t-shirts. It's scary to toss out so much money's worth of clothing and shoes, but what am I hanging onto them for? Yes, I guess there's a chance I may have to return to the professional world (if, God forbid my husband lost his job) but would these even still fit and be in style? Maybe I'll throw away half, but which half? I don't desperately need the space right now so therefore I hang onto this stuff, but..... purging could be cleansing.

Anyway, I would suggest you try half of a mild pill someday... what's the worst that can happen? But then again, seeing a doctor right now probably isn't feasible. :( I just hate to see you suffer more than you need to..... life is short and I want you enjoying it as much as possible, or at LEAST not struggling just to get through a day.

Friggin' anxiety and depression..... it's a horrible disease.
Sue

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Awww Sue, thanks for caring, but yes you are right. No doctor appointments at all. Poor Mr C had to wait outside for his prescription to be handed to him and he wanted to get hay-fever tablets, but such chaos he left..

Getting back to clothes, because its definitely an issue for me. I totally agree with what you said and underline your remark that we will probably never wear them again, most of them out of fashion anyway. The cost? Oh my, I don't even want to go there. And what about the cost of a t. Shirt today? Some are as much as £40!
I unfortunately don't have the space to keep and Mr C is worse than me.
I had this idea I was going to make new designs out of my old clothes. Can I be bothered? Of course I can't.
Would be difficult anyway as I've outgrown most of them.
At least you can tuck belly fat into jeans and leggings. And a t. Shirt can just hang if you wish.
Whatever I do or eat, just can't get rid of the belly fat. So I've had to dress differently to my days of power dressing, lol.
So I already have a bag for the Oxfam shute, another bag for selling somewhere, a bag for redesigning and another bag for 'what the hell do I do with sentimental attachments of good days ".
Today's fashion is more streetwise, urban, let it hang or hide the bits.
Is it me or are manufacturers cutting their fabric a little tighter?
In my punk years I would I would safety pin a few bin liners together. That would make me sweat today.
But for now, t. Shirt and jeans, maybe a nice blouse on special occasions and cover up with an oversized jacket.
My new thing is wearing a cap. Love it! Shove all the hair in, it doesn't move and shades me from the sun.
Talking of sun. It's now too hot to be in here. I got tanned from being in the shade. But generally, I can't do any work in the garden or sit out in it too long. It comes with the price of really bad hay-fever. And it's been really bad for me this year. :(
Well I've done far too much waffling today, probably because I'm still in Lock-down. Thanks for listening x

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You just reminded me that there is a place online that accepts used clothing and sells them. You get very little for them when they do sell, but it's better than tossing them in the garbage. Maybe I'll look them up again.

Today is going to be another gardening day for me - it's cool enough out that it will be pleasant, but tonight there is a freeze warning again so will all the things I plant end up dying? And I'm really phobic about ticks this year since I removed one from my skin the other day and had to take an antibiotic.

Speaking of hats, I ordered one online and it should be arriving today, same reason as you! I want to tuck all my long hair up in it (to protect it from any bugs) and at the same time shade me. I've never been much of a hat person but perhaps it's time to start.

I woke up very agitated today. Normally I wake up slowly and calmly, but today I woke up in the middle of a dream in which I was frustrated/angry/agitated and even though I'm awake I'm still in that state. I've warned my husband.

The bright spot in my day is the scale showed a break-through....I'm finally into the 160's!!!! Low-carbing has gotten rid of my belly fat, and apparently some pounds, too. It's been slow . . . about a half a pound a week, but at this age I guess that's not terrible. So I'll keep doing what I'm doing and see how low I can go!

Be well, everyone.
Sue

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Sue, I'm phobic about most things, especially in the garden. If you dress accordingly that should put your mind at rest. I've just claimed Mr C's cap as my own. It means I can trail my hair through the while in the back and because of the peaked cap, I don't need to wear my sunglasses.

Belly fat...
Less carbs, does not mean less potatoes and bread? The two things I eat the most. :(
It's strange because the rest of me is not too bad, but this 3 month pregnant look, well, it just gets in the way.

Why do we wake up agitated? Our dreams perhaps, lack of good sleep, anxious, anger, hormones?
Agitation is sneaky because it comes with no warning and sometimes no explanation. I tend to get stuck into chores when like that. It's when I have the most energy. So maybe it's pent up adrenalin.

The weak has been quite warm lately but those UV rays are not to be reckoned with. So most of my day has been inside. I'm slowly decluttering. One thing a day is 30 things a month. 30 things less is a lot! If I don't use it, need it, like it, then it goes. Goes in a bag waiting for its departure.

x

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I was quite the sight in the garden yesterday: Big floppy hat with all my hair FIRST in a hairnet and then up in the hat. Jeans tucked into long white socks! Sandals on top of the socks. T-shirt tucked into my jeans. Plastic gloves that went up to my shoulders! But still, I was phobic, and here's why: yes, being totally covered may keep them off of my skin, but if they get on the clothing, the clothing then comes into the house, and even if I disrobe in the laundry room and leave the items there, I fear the ticks are now in the house and on their way to attach to us humans or the dogs.

The new hat didn't offer the perfect solution for my hair coverage: once I put it in a ponytail or pile it on top of my head, the hat is then too small. I don't want to leave the ponytail hanging out the back of the hat because a tick might jump on there. I'm going to lose a few layers of skin because I shower so frequently and vigorously now, and I've read that even showers don't always remove them if they have started to burrow. And do a full body check? Sure, except they are the size of the point of a pencil - I have freckles bigger than that! Anyway, I'm just going to have to get fed up with my phobia and start relaxing about it a bit, unless I can order a full plastic bubble to live in.

Mrs. C... I fear going low-carb would never work for you as, yes, that means giving up bread, potatoes, pasta, fruits, etc. But what a difference it makes! The inflammation, puffiness, bloating is all gone. Still, it's not for everyone, and unless you and Mr. C are both committed to it, it probably won't work.

I am SO TIRED and I fear it's going to be challenging to function at the shelter today. Of course I just Googled it, and tree pollen DOES cause this kind of fatigue that hit me yesterday afternoon, after being outside in our wooded yard all day. Caffeine, here we come!
Sue

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Sue, I buy men's hats, because of all my hair!
Trilby style, definitely not floppy, they only flop everywhere except for where I want them. x

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Adverts to the side now when you close latest threads. Even if you click the Ads to get rid, another pops up, so threads still squashed on the right. Just for info, not a complaint, because I wouldn't dare after the last two days.

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