I've gone totally decaf now and it's made a huge difference. I even carry a couple of bags around with me in case I go anywhere where they don't have it.
Mind you, I'm finding more and more people have converted and most outlets stock it.
I've managed to do a bit of driving in the new car and finding it a bit easier. Although we might have to take it back as already there's a strange noise which is worrying me. :( I've also noticed that after a drive I suffer with a vibrating right foot like I've been feeding adrenalin in to it via the gas pedal.
Unfortunately most of my adrenalin rushes used to come from driving which is one of the reasons I stopped driving.
But I'm only doing local short runs and that's a major step for me. Still not driving alone, but in time I hopefully will.
My people anxiety is still very apparent. I went to an invitation that I've been avoiding for some time to see someone that's been asking me to pop in for a coffee and chat. And I went yesterday, carrying my little bag of decaf tea.
I was ok, but after a while became quite fidgety, but I did go and sort of ticked it off my list.
It's so difficult with invitations because you don't want to appear rude and you don't want to reveal your anxieties to people and tell them you can't cope with it. So you end up making all the excuses under the sun.
Unfortunately, whatever you do, you may end up just appearing not interested or unsociable.
It can't be helped and at the end of the day, your welfare is more important. And any understanding person will be more sympathetic.
Autumn seems to have arrived this weekend with the heavy rain and strong winds.
This is a good excuse to stay in. Although I like to get fresh air and pop out for a little while, it gets me out of going out for the day.
I'm finding a couple of hours out suits my needs, four at a push, but a whole day just drains me.
I've upped my walking and my sleeping has improved. Still waking up, but not so often.
All in all, I'm not doing so bad.
Anxiety is still there as is the hyperness and moments of panic, but it's not disabling me at the moment.
I'm going to do those lists this weekend and quite looking forward to trying some new things.