Hi Sue
Well done you! For standing your ground and taking control and more importantly, putting yourself first!
Do you feel guilty? Of course you do. I can just see their face with a turned down smile. But! This is the only way they will kick butt and look for extra staff, otherwise down the line it will be the tiredness that pushes you out and not the job.
Sometimes when you show passion for a job, the bosses think, "Ahhhh, let's pile on more shit.
I was once a bookshop manager and after about 6 months got asked to a meeting where they told me they wanted me to manage a bigger shop of theres. My heart sank as I'd worked hard building and shaping the one I already had and got to know the customers and staff.
"Oh no, they said, we don't want you to leave there, we want you to do both!"
And like a fool, I agreed.
My 7 hour day turned into a 10 hour day, plus working from home. So the enjoyment became resentment and I no longer enjoyed it.
It's ok to do favours and help out occasionally, but keep the perspective and you'll have a winner!
My muscle twitching made an appearance yesterday morning, in my shoulder. (that's a new one).
"Yes anxiety, I know you are still there". What a persistent blighter it is, always wanting attention.
It didn't deter me from going for a long walk, popping to the shops, and visiting some friends about 5 miles away. Although we didn't stay long, it was a "Hi, how you doing, can't stay long, have a dinner to cook, but thought we'd just pop by".
Came away with an invite over the Christmas and thought "shucks, maybe shouldn't have gone and already thinking of an excuse to get out of it".
But, anxiety behaved, because I told it too, if it wants to be with me, it has to tow the line. But have to say that evening I was incredibly tired and that was by 9pm. Although it was 10pm really with the clock change.
It was my first time in a Supermarket for about 6 weeks!
Not a Superstore, but still isles built like a rabbits warren, so pleased I managed it with flying colours.
Sue, remember the anxiety symptoms are just there to remind you and not to disable you. x
And keep up the good work Mrs M, we've got this!
x