Hi all,
I hope you are all doing ok.
YNWA- how is the shoulder - how are you doing?
Carnation, your mottos and wise words of advice are keeping everyone going - including me.
just my two penneth worth - Wendywil- EMDR really helped me with my PTSD. I was badly bullied at school - I know a lot of people were and still are. It was emotional bullying where sometimes you were included with the other girls and sometimes you were out of favour and left out. I also went through a bad break up at the time- my first serious relationship which ended and I was never given a reason as to why- which left me feeling as though there was something wrong with me but I didn’t know what (that’s an ongoing issue). But with regards to particular incidents- where they all followed me home one night and called me names and when my ex broke up with me- I had EMDR for an it completely neutralised how the event affected me- it was like a weight lifted. Whilst I realise it is not as bad as some of the events that have been referred to here- I don’t think you can lose anything by giving it a go- what have you got to lose?
Its so nice to hear you are having a Christmas that is for yourself this year- and my how you deserve it. You have got yourself well organised for Christmas and now to have some guilt free resting and enjoyment- if you let yourself and don’t feel guilty. I guess you go into a habit (through not fault of your own) of putting everyone else before you. You worried about those you cared for and they may have been constantly in your mind. It’s like your brain has got into the habit of worrying and when the source of worry is no longer there (the loss of your dear parents) the brain carries on acting in the same way. It has got into a habit of worrying. But gradually it will learn new thought pathways and adjust to your new circumstances and hopefully allow you to enjoy yourself - and you are definitely one who deserves to enjoy yourself.
just a quick update on me- I’m doing good- but I do still feel a very weak feeling of depression. It seems to be getting weaker and funnily enough it’s at a time when I am relaxing after being on my feet all day at work- I feel guilty for enjoying my time or relaxing- like I am being lazy or self-indulgent or something.
Also, work is not great- I was told that there are too many managers in our store so I will be demoted as the company did not make enough money last year- so they are taking it out of my pocket instead. I was offered another manager job but it’s hours that will interferes with family life- so it’s not great. But it could be worse - I could be without a job. Annoying thing is- all I have ever done is what I am told. Worked hard at school, got good grades, studied law at university and law school (which nearly killed me). It took a year for me to find a job but I never gave up and when I got the job I worked my socks and got promoted to firm manager. Then when I got pregnant - the other (female) bosses took exception to that and made life very hard so I had to leave. I got a job in retail and after 5 years of working my socks off - now I get slapped on the wrist again- just what is this teaching the world?? I wonder sometimes if I am just too nice. Maybe we are all too nice and that is why we have depression and anxiety. Xxx