Hi everyone,
It's been about two weeks since I posted and wish I had some great tips and inspiration to give to you all.
Sadly, I am still suffering despite doing regular yoga, meditation, breathing exercises, physical exercises, affirmations, regular and healthy diet and 7-8 hours of sleep.
I'm still walking about my day thinking I'm going to collapse any minute and the feeling of walking on a boat reminds me of that. My eyesight doesn't seem to want to focus without the feeling that something is wrong with my brain, I'm sweating like a hot roast due to the weather which is reminding me of panic attacks. I can't seem to get worrying about the future out of my head. Past traumas keep popping up in my head too.
I've had noises in my ears that I've never heard before like a ticking clock that resembles a heartbeat.
Every walk or person I see makes me want to run back home where I honestly don't feel any better.
And of course Mr C is not aware of most of this, so I go somewhere quiet to cry thinking I will never be able to live the rest of my life with any normality.
I can't even sit and relax without a jolt or a feeling I'm moving when I am not!
Any recovery has only given me snippets of a small percentage of normality.
Should I apologise for being truthful and paint a glossier picture of what it's really like?
It's 24/7 torture and I just can't see anyway of ridding these feelings.
I'm tired, my body seems like it has a will of its own and my mind just won't shut-up!