Feeling a bit jaded today.
Last night the floodgates opened and I ended up talking about lots of stuff from the past with Mr C.
Obviously it needed to come out and thought I might feel better for it today, but it's left me feeling a bit depressed to be honest. So I'm having an easy day and letting that episode pass, as it always does.
I wondered whether I should even mention it because I feel I should be a ray of hope to everyone.
And then I thought, if I'm not truthful about the bad bits, then I can't be totally truthful in my posts.
Living in the present is so needed to relieve anxiety, but it's not so easy to forget past trauma and grief.
If only we could wipe that slate clean like a computer.
But the reason we can't is because we need the good memories too and we learn from all memories.
There's nothing we can change about the past, it is what it is. But as we live in the present we can use our past experiences to guide us through the future.
I know, I'm rambling on, lol.
What I'm trying to say is we shouldn't let our past affect our lives today but be who we are and what we want to be. And that is what I am going to apply to myself too.
We spend far too much time thinking about 'what Ifs' and 'If only' and 'It was my fault' or 'I made a mistake'. Why? Its gone. You can't change any of it now. It was how it was then and you are in the now and alive to live how you choose to do so.
So let's be kinder to ourselves when we have a flashback to the past. x