Re: Relapse! Coping, Symptoms and Tips.
Originally Posted by
Carnation
Fishman, you really are such a nice guy.
And a little of me thinks you come on my thread because it must appear I'm just chatting away to myself most of the time with very little response from others.
Lol, I'm use to that because that is the reality of us sufferers. Little outside communication, practically no invitations and dare I say, no friends. Either people see you as an outcast or you make yourself one.
However we still get lonely at times and seek some sort of human contact and NMP allows us to do that. I have met some wonderful people on here that will be lifelong friends and outweigh most of the people I have met throughout my life.
Fishman, you truly are amazing! You have your 92 year old father who seems to have no help but from you. Your wife seemingly depends on you 24/7. Let alone the rest of the family. Just remember the next time you feel jaded what you actually have leaning on you.
And you still find time to pop on someone's thread to give them support. Which you've done many a time with our friend Buster.
You have one big heart my friend and one of the most selfless people I have ever met. You reread that last sentence fishman, especially when you feel washed out again with all your duties and caring. And for just a part of the day, you take time for you because you deserve it!
Bless you Carnation I am deeply touched by your very kind words but unsure as to whether I deserve or can live up to them. There are people here on NMP that are far more selfless than me, including yourself. Having said all that, your words have made my day so I won't knock them any further.
Ultimately we all have to grit our teeth and get on with things, which you yourself do every time you get out of bed in the morning. However my day has been further made by the delivery of the new aquarium light. Its an LED one and has different settings where you can alter the light to different ends of the spectrum and also the intensity. So I've been like a kid with a new toy. That said, I'm choosing lighting that is most natural for the fish. Their wellbeing takes priority.
Keep writing here Carnation, it is therapy for you. Look after yourself too ok?
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